I have doubted You, distrusted You, and gave You Hell and you’ve done nothing but good for me. Now, mind you, I have not forgotten the times You gave me Hell in return or simply just made me feel so hurt and lonely because of those nights You decided to not show up when You said that You were.
I love You; my heart only begins to beat when I see your face and I just hope that we can finally get to where I want us to be. I don’t want to have faith in our future; I want our present to be stronger and lead into a great future. I need to know that right now I’m just as important to You as you are to me. I’m ready for our sunshine; our rainbow. I sure as hell hope the sky is bright and our rainbow is vibrant because the rain has poured long enough.
I’m having so many relationship problems with people. However, the one that matters most to me is my friendship with my best friend. So, after years and years of giving probably one of the best people in the world problems due to my lack of trust in the human race, we finally come to some form of peace. However, after finally taking so many steps forward, my best friend wants to take thousands steps back to where we started and for no apparent reason what-so-ever. I’m lost, hurt, confused, and angry all at the same time. I know things are probably going to eventually get better but I’m so sick and tired of the twists and turns of this emotional roller-coaster we’ve been on for so long. I want to find an equilibrium for at least longer than a month.